Nothing. Just more of nothing.
Same as for everyone else… nothing. I’m not sure if I’ll ever hear your voice again… and it’s OK if not… while you were talking it was stressful and yet I felt a connection with you unlike any other connection to anyone here.
God giveth and God taketh away.
For a short time I thought that God was going to actually get involved again. But there was only the talking for a relatively short while… perhaps God will choose someone else to reveal his word? No matter, I’m really not going to worry about it.
Maybe just maybe this is God’s will… that I start to question everything some more… everything is God’s will so – this too I imagine. However, I’m not going in a good direction I don’t believe. Things are really not making sense much. Faith, when questioned, does not stand up for long. The feeling in my mind about God is not at all that concrete anymore without the voice. I would have a hard time of this in the future I see…
As I was eating my soup there was a piece of pork in it… and I thought about the pig that provided that pork. The pig that feels pain. The pig that lives for whatever reason – maybe just to provide it’s innards for people to consume, who knows the meaning of a pig’s life… and God has told us through the bible that we are important… that we are God’s children…
And so, what about everything else? We are God’s children and what are the animals? Not God’s pets. They are incidental… having no real meaning at all I believe. How could they have any meaning – when God has given them the bottom rung in the food chain. Why is there a food chain? Why didn’t God make the rules such that we can only eat things that are dead – like snails do… why do we kill things in order to eat them?
We kill the plants and the animals to eat them. And they kill each other.
A more general commandment, thy shall not kill was in effect for 2000 years. And what was the point of that catch 22? Did God mean it literally? That we should only eat that which is dead? There isn’t a lot we can do that with really…
are coconuts dead when they fall from the tree – or still alive?
Are peanuts dead – when they can sprout a whole new tree… nah, even they’re still alive… same as slitting a cows or pigs throat and bleeding it to death – it’s all technically killing…
Not sure about any of this… questioning it is not bringing peace of mind… but neither is blindly believing it either.