I just realized I’ve not posted here for months. I have been busy with my life, choosing not to rely on god for anything and it’s turning out as much of the same – no success in any area and lots of disappointment in all of them.
Whether there is faith or no faith I have found that it makes no difference at all. Faith is for the mind to keep going. It’s for the weak and those that prefer to live outside reality. I live in reality most times now and though it sucks just the same at least I’m not looking for a savior to come and change something.
If I want to change something – I change it. If I don’t change anything – nothing changes. That’s reality. Hope in god to do something for me in my life is ridiculous considering there are other horrifying things going on in the world that he’s quite consistently ignoring. Why would it concern it’s self with me? My problems aren’t all that great yet.
So – we wait to see… will Jerry’s problems get so great that god gives a care and does something? Not likely.
Notice the little children with cancer that are suffering through chemotherapy at 2 years old, 3… notice the tears they cry or do you ignore them like the rest of Christians that believe in their “good god”?
Notice the little children being raped in Cambodia… their vaginas and rectums torn and infected with herpes, syphillus, gonorrhea, trichinosis, and chlamydia… oh, did I mention HIV? HIV is actually their savior, as it will cut short their suffering someday… Notice how many of you Christians are doing something DAILY to help those that are not as well off as yourself.
Notice how you only associate with those of similar beliefs?
Notice how many Christians are offering shelter, training, food, advice, love, caring, showers, soap, shoes and Q-tips to the millions of homeless in American and elsewhere around the world?
Notice how if Christians DO help that they prefer to help almost anonymously…. and not putting out much more effort than writing a check or dropping money in an envelope at their church so that their money will help others. Notice how good you Christians feel about that weak act… It’s a cop-out for doing something real and lasting… It’s an easy and cheap way for you to feel like you DID something – when in fact, you’ve just enabled others to do something. You did nothing more than write a check for some amount that meant nothing to you.
How many of you Christians give until it hurts? I mean really hurts. How many of you forsake savings so that you can give the money away to someone that needs it NOW?
I’ve become sick of Christianity over these months. I’ve opened up my mind to the sickness that exists within us. I don’t even call myself Christian anymore. I think Christians are a largely worthless lot that groom each other and give everyone in their little groups a “happy-happy”, but that essentially avoid anything where they might become embarrased or need to interact personally with someone one-on-one to effect a change in someone’s life.