One time as I was laying on the bed in my small apartment in Tampa, Florida I heard a voice… no lie…
it said, “Alex needs teaching”
I said, WHAT? What the he** was that???
I said, WHAT was that?
I sat and thought what it could mean. Alex as my my wife some years before that. I hadn’t heard from or spoken to her, wrote her, nothing in a very long time… she needs teaching? Teaching what?
I couldn’t figure it out… then…
“SEE WHAT YOU CAN DO”
I said, WHAT THE HEL* was that!?
See what I can do? What the he** am I gonna do. She’s in British Columbia, Canada OR she’s still in France boning that French Photographer – Patrick Demarchelier or something like that…. I think she eventually married him and had kids with him.
So, I ignored it… what good was a message I couldn’t make sense of?
See, that’s typical of God – and part of the reason I don’t believe he’s a good or smart god in particular. What the he** good is that message?
It was lost on me. Should have told someone else.
A god that doesn’t make a decent effort to get anything done… to even communicate … what good is that god?
I don’t need that kind of god… the world doesn’t either.
I gotta find me a new god… this one isn’t up to par for the course…